Archive for August, 2008

HELLO PEOPLE!!

Okay, so today we are having Teachers’ Day celebration in my school since the Teachers’ Day is like on the 1st? I think.. Which is the school holiday.

And we did the decorations for the classroom by yesterday. Josephine volunteered to help. Initially, the people in the class were like, “we don’t need decoration”. but at last the decoration was put up and I think there is more “mood” to the celebration.. hahas~

Form Teacher period: Paiseh siahh. I did not pass the key to the people in the class and went for class chairman meeting. So basically the whole class were like sitting outside for more/less 20 mins? =x.

But then bell ring when I go back… Then teacher ask us to settle about the class photo.
I buy all — as a keepsake of 2E4. I don’t think the whole class will be together again next year so yeahh..

Mother Tongue period: For the whole period, the class were discussing about the trip. There are lots of choices like Brunei, Malacca, Batam, etc etc…
I am not sure if I am going for the trip siahh.. I’m lazy xDD

Class Party “period”: LOL, so we were waiting for our teacher, she was late.
But the party really gone well. There is no food fight whatsoever :D:D
SO… YAYYY!!! xDD
and that cleaning up was a big mess because the ice melted and there is a big pool of water on the floor. But well, it was dried up.
And we still have to rearrange the tables and chairs — because of the O’level or N’Level oral exam or smth like that..
But we got most of the things done in within 5 minutes.
And the potato chips are all gone.
But I was sure it filled like 4 of our tables put together..
I just realised that my class are really crazy about chips xDDD

ACES day: I LOVE IT!! Its so fun cans!! I like the choreography. HIP HOP!! But we were having some space problems. T.T So it was a little bumpy. And the 2N5s were a BIG DISTURBANCE.

Teachers’ Day Concert: 0-kayy.. LOL seriously, I have no comment about the singing.
I think its a bit flat or maybe offkey, BUT hey, they did their best.
They came up to sing mann, so we must appreciate them for being brave and confident.
So *APPLAUSES*
I love the dance. There is robot dance, hip-hop.
The girls did a split in one of their hip-hop choreography. And what Mitchell and I called it is:
BALLOP = Ballet + Hip Hop
– So Mitchell and I were pretending to lag at every performance. So we were damn nonsensical. after lag, then clap madly like there is no tomorrow. == yeahh, fun but some people were pissed ._.

After concert, went back to help to clean the class.
We were not caught for a dirty class because we finished most of our cleaning.
What’s left is last minute touches siahh..
And I was one of the last to leave the class..

Our class got 3rd for the dance competition.
HOORAY 2E4!! HOORAY 2E4!! xD
So we got a present and its:
Melted Egg Chocolates and Highlighters!! LOLx

You know what is the most sad thing? Its that I can’t really go back to TKP. Why? Because the teachers that I am going to visit had went back alr, even before I leave school. I can’t really believe it that today is not half day. So T.T

Okay, I think thats it. Nothing else. Gone home to slack and sleep ._. so bored

t0ddles, -jMax;

HELLO PEOPLE!!

MY KULINTANG REACHED A SEMIQUAVER SPEED!!
AND NOW I’M SO DDEADD — 26/08/08
why? my right hand is not that strong. And the instructor says that I need my right hand to be strong since I am a piano player.. But I think its strong when piano.. but for kulintang, not really lerhh, because its only 2 sticks, whereas piano you got 10 fingers to play the things.. T.T, etc..
and and and I’m a left-hander.. which mean I hold things in different hand. Like *jawdrop*

today was per normal..
except that i woke up and go to school with a BIG BIG BIG headache — don’t know why..
and that i am having mood swings.. — very emo today

so during D&T, the strip heater was purposely called the striptease by some boys=x
i finished the chasis of the F1 car thing that is made out of acrylic. Bent finish alr and the rod can fit perfectly in the 4 holes.

Everything else was per normal, err.. except, after school.

Go home.
eat 3 packets of instant noodles + 1 serving or rice
and slept 3 hours.

LOLLL. anw, I really don’t know what to say alr. I am not in the mood to eat now either.
Either loss appetite or having a HUUUUGGE appetite..

Found score sheet for Egan to perform for the Instrumental thing this Saturday. I hope its not too hard. later then I’ll see how..

t0ddles, -jMax;

P.S. I’m going back to TKP this Friday for Teachers’ Day. Any TKians coming?

HELLO PEOPLE!!

So today is the competition for the dance thing where a choreographer came to our school for the last 6 weeks and train us with the choreography. Its all the whole Secondary 2 level, but each class has different music and different choreography.

So yesterday, I was sending out smses to people to bring their National T-shirt 2008, but well, not everyone bring T.T
But its very small number of people, I think..

So after science, we changed. Then there was confusion how we “modify” the school uniform.
So it was finalized.
The boys wear the Uniform unbuttoned over the National Day Shirt
The girls wear the National Day Shirt over the Uniform.

So then we were rushing. Then we were late. Then “somoone” was not happy.. -.-

We reached Siglap CC last. All the classes were there.
Then Chanel took attendance
Then I draw lots for the sequence that we were supposed to perform.

And our class got: FIRST to perform [1st -- In case you cnnt read the words xD]
I was panicking cans. I was not really prepared for this..
But anw. we went to performed.
AND THE HALL IS SO SMALL CANS! I think half of our school hall or something..
so we were given a second chance to perform at the end
so its like.. opening and closing ceremony xDxD

and then results came. we got 3rd.
the first and second are from 2/6 and 2/8 respectively — i think..
we maybe asked to perform this Friday. if not enough time then will be first and second positions only..

So yeahh. then we got to settle with “someone” for being late.
10 mins oni. so we should be held back for 10 mins right?
then “someone” oso not happy that 2/2 bring bags? whats the problem with that siahh?
make small matters big.
Then hold us for like 30 mins under the hot sun..

So then went back to class, I want to discuss with the class but some of them don’t want..
So I got kinda angry and shouted at them. Can’t remember what I exactly shouted but I was angry that they are not helping me.
If I were to decide by myself, later they blame me. But if I ask them gather for awhile, they don’t want..

But at last, they helped me.
So thanks a lot guys for your cooperation.
I am willing to shed blood for 2E4 as long as you guys to help me.

So with that, cased closed, end of the day.
t0ddles, -jMax;

HELLO PEOPLE!!

Okay, Let me say, My heart is not at ease. I don’t know why.
There is alot of things that is too disturbing. I also don’t know what to do about it.
Mainly, I wanna say, I think I am going to quit being a monitor in the class.
I don’t the cooperation that I need.
And I don’t want these UNNECESSARY THINGS to affect my studies.
I am also drifting apart from most/all my goals.
My mind is so damn empty today.

—–

Talked to Novee on the phone after school and after angklung.
Mitchell came to disturb our craptalk session.
I wonder if Novee felt offended or not… ><”

Angklung: I felt so happy! I finally know how to hit the notes on the upbeat!!
Actually I know alr, but I just can’t get it in my head xDDD

short post today, gomenasai
t0ddles, -jMax;

HELLO PEOPLE!!

Part 2:
Went home straightaway. Well, slept for a few hours. I woke up, watch TV. Snacks
on a lot of contrabands xDD! Mainly on sour things. I think I’m like a pregnant
woman siahh..

So anw, I felt bored. So here are some random pictures that I’ve just taken
and some days before

[28/07/2008] SUGOIII!!! KIREI NE……
[translation="Japanese" WOW! So beautiful]

[30/07/2008] YUMMY!! ITADAKIMASU!!

[10/08/2008] *HOMEMADE* Fine dining xDDD

[10/08/2008] The reason I gained weight?

[10/08/2008] Okay, preparing to study

[10/08/2008] From another angle xDD

[10/08/2008] Studying in progress.. See how “quai-kia” I am =DDD

[15/08/2008] Okay, all my books are still outside until now

[15/08/2008] The ultimate surviving kit when you’re in the bus or MRT alone

[15/08/2008] Pin up my fringe. Irritating Pimples *RAWRR!!*

[15/08/2008] My “retired” spectacles.
Sitting by the side of my table now =DD

[15/08/2008] Fingerless glove!!
NOVEE gave me one =DDDDD

[15/08/2008] YAY!! My keyboard

[15/08/2008] Metronome. I’ve promised you guys I’ll get a picture for you.

[15/08/2008] How I hooked it onto the tablelamp

[15/08/2008] YAY!! Listen to the MP3 sample first before you start on the piece
Can be used to go to YouTube to see how other people play the piece =DDDDDD

—–

Yeap, I’ve cooled down by alot and now in high spirits.
CYAS~

t0ddles, -jMax;

HELLO PEOPLE!!

Okay, basically, I am splitting up today’s post into two, the second part
will be in another new post. So first part: Why I broke down and cried during
recess? — I am really gonna spill blood and gore onto this post, so please
don’t mind — I just got to get everything out.. The second post will DEFINITELY
be much happier, I promise (:

The answer is: I don’t know okay.. Its just too emotional at that time during
recess and that nothing goes along with me. I am not really angry and upset that
you guys were using my markers for doodling on the board. I am upset that 2E4
are not really serious about EVERYTHING.

All I remembered is that:
1) I was writing alphabets on the musical scores
2) Then Bhalaji asked me to borrow my phone — need to call his mom.
3) I was already having some problem with the marker — people taking it and
using it for some crap purposes.
4) I slammed my phone on the table, Bhalaji went like w0ahh and asked me why I
slammed my phone on the table.
5) I got really emotional and upset about the class.
6) I picked up the phone again and crashed it on the floor I can remember that
the back cover and the batter is separated in the phone..
7) Bhalaji asked me what is wrong: “This is not the usual me,” he said..
Somewhere, Poh Yee, helped me to write out my musical scores.
9) I thanked her, but tears about this whole anger thing has already started.
10) Put my head down on the table. Clenched my fist so hard like there is no
tomorrow
11) People went o.o — Why is he crying
12) Grab my water bottle and drown myself it it. Finished the water in that
NEWater bottle in within 5 big gulps and spilling over my shirt and pants..
13) Some people went over to comfort me*
14) And everything kinda went back to normal. I just don’t know what happened.
But I was still red and puffy during Geography

I snapped 6 pictures, of some things that makes me upset about the class:

Broken chair: I was warned by the OM to take care of the furniture in class, but if more people just don’t listen and continue breaking, well, not my fault alr.

Please, just whack some more at the papers, or even destroy the whole board. Some people worked so hard just to beautify the board. Don’t you feel proud of their efforts? or would you rather not have decorations at all? How about you decorate the board and I whack it until everything is destroyed? How do you feel?

Litters: A relatively huge foolscap cardboard on the floor. I am not upset about this, there is more around the class, but I just can’t bear to show more..

A little bit vandalized announcement board..

zoomed in picture for what I’m targeting: Planning class outing. This is something that I really hate. When announcement is written in text form on the board, some will change it, or make fun of it. People get the wrong idea/information, then blame me, then teacher also target me for giving wrong information

Okay, last picture: this is really something called not appreciating one’s work. This one of the most upsetting thing that I am having feeling over now. I’ve been tidying it over FUCKING tons and tons of times.. Yet, still got messed up by the end of the day.

Other things that I am upset about:

- Duty roster: I went back to class after music. Ran with only socks on, but with shoes off. I just don’t care about anything else. I cleaned the class, arranged the table and chairs. I will talk to the class about the duty roster.

I have to really remind everyone to do roster. Some just dashed out and don’t
care what I am talking.

Only a few people do roster.

I am just asking you to do 4 simple things:
1) Close the windows
2) Erase the whiteboard
3) Sweep the floor
4) Arrange the tables and chairs
— 8 or 9 people per day: will make the job done faster in within 5 ~ 10 minutes right? And all the chores there are one of the most basic things. I don’t ask you to wipe the windows with a piece of damn cloth, etc..

- Strangers (Non 2E4-eans) entering the class during recess: I really HATE to say this. Just don’t fucking invite them in can? Please for my sake? If they destroy anything, we will really be in trouble. The reason that I don’t lock the classroom during recess, is that I trust you guys to take care of the class. We are 2E4-eans. As a class, we need to have trust among each other. But once stranger enters, it will be a total different feeling — Its like a guest enters your house and goes to your room, intruding your personal spaces. What if someone lost their belongings? Who will be responsible? I know 2E4-eans will not steal, but should we put the blame on the strangers?

—–

* I really want to thank people comforted me just now. Some asked me to go to
toilet but I don’t want to because of the fact that I don’t want to be seen
crying by other classes and that I am really not in the mood to further mess up
my face. I would like to thank people who comforted me, both during recess and
after school.

I was comforted by:
— Ahmad Fuad: thanks for asking me repeatedly again and again whether I am okay or not
— Bhalaji: Yup, thanks for telling me that this is not the usual me, I am really knocked over by that word.
— Mitchell: Thanks for patting my shoulder again and again
— Jezebel: Thanks for bugging me to go to toilet, but I am okay
— Hui Ting: Thanks for just standing there and asking why I was
— Josephine for approaching me after school when I was cleaning the class by myself. I’m Sorry that I ignored her when she approached me after school when I am cleaning the class today by myself,. I was not angry with her, I was still upset about the whole thing
— Poh Yee for writing alphabets on my music scores (: Although its only 2 bars I am very very grateful xD — I won’t erase, I promise (:
— Mayer, who comforted me after school. talked about class matters and whatnots. I really want to thank me for giving suggestions and agreeing to some of my points of dissatisfaction
—– there are more people, but I don’t really know who they are. I was facing down and didn’t bothered to look at you guys. So here I am expressing my thanks in this post. So I’m sorry if I left any of you guys..

After school, Poh Yee sms-ed me: “Ehh.. You okay now? Why you cry just now ? Mental breakdown ?”
Mental breakdown (also known as nervous breakdown or snapping) is a non-medical term used to describe a sudden, acute attack of mental illness such as depression or anxiety — Wikipedia
– Yeap, I think that is more like it. Suffering from a mild depression, but I am not sure how to check if I have it, or maybe not. I hope these craps just clears up by next week.

I am a normal person. I am also a student. I don’t paid to clean up the class. I am also a human too. As a monitor, I don’t need you to bow down to me, worship me, give me presents, etc. I just need you to co-operate with me. I have feelings too, just like you people. I am tired of all these things, I just want my rest — what’s so wrong with that?

t0ddles, -jMax;

HELLO PEOPLE!!

I am so bushed!! So damn tired. Literature paper was such a big big big big big big *beep*!!
I don’t know what to say of it larhh. Its just that we are supposed to memorized quotes from the whole book. And you know what was the question? Give 3 scenes to illustrate your point why Juliet is a pitiable character in the story.
Then still must give quotes, which we must memorize it — in Shakespeare language
Maths paper was okay. Mostly sets and graph.
After school, went straight home. Slept in the bus again!! RROARRR~~
I am very fatigued also nowadays. Don’t know why.

You know what?
I bought deworming medicine!! After a long time. I noticed that my appetite has been increasing lately like :0! I don’t know also why. Even though I ate 2 portions but I’m still hungry. I gained 2 kgs T.T
Maybe its stress-related but I don’t know.

And I’ve been coming to school like 30 minutes earlier than I usually do. Why? Leave home at 6 instead of 6.30.. Woke up 1h earlier than usual too. Just this week. I don’t know if I am stressing myself too much by waking up too early, having only 5 to 6.5 hours of sleep.

Piano update: I FINALLY bought a metronome!! YAYYY
Bought it at around $22.
Actually, its not really for piano because it also come with a tuner for chromatic, guitar, bass and violin.
The piano one cost around $87? Very expensive, but have lots of functions..
But I like it because it can be clipped onto the table lamp and its within easy acess. I will show you the when I have the time to take the picture
I want to attempt this Grade 8 Song. I don’t know if I can do it. I don’t even have a grade LOL. I’m just dying to do things so harshly like :0. So many demisemiquavers ._.
And has 17 pages. xDD
Maybe I should consider it again. Not twice, or thrice, but ten times.. I don’t know if I can even get the first page right ._.

I will be uploading some random pictures that I’ve taken. LOL. See first bahh. I really have not enough time now. Tomorrow is the LSS exam. One more and then I’m gone off to paradise, maybe not. xDDD

Okayy, gtg, I’ll post again tomorrow..
t0ddles, -jMax;