HELLO PEOPLE

Okay, I have had enough. Seriously, I think that everyone is not that very nice to me. Even among good friends I feel like we are a little bit distanced, a feeling like we are falling apart from each other. I feel sick. SUPER SICK. i don’t feel like seeing these people anymore. Everyone is so damn fucked up selfish and self-centered in their own ways. They don’t care about other people feelings and just do things according to their selfish intents. They won’t hesitate to kick you down when they find the chance. There are even people who thinks that they are too mature that everything is “LAME” to them.

To add fuel to the fire, some teachers are really hard on us. not only because of expectations, but EVERYTHING.
I don’t wanna get picked for every single wrongdoings that I do. Afterall, I am still a HUMAN BEING like everyone is and I am NOT perfect, so please understand.

On the other hand, I understand and know very well that being in top class, I have to be super flexible and have to withstand studying from 7am right to 6pm which I have experienced it before in primary 6, while we were preparing for PSLE. and I can tolerate it before and be even more than ready to study even more.

I can’t concentrate well to studies at home. There are like so many distractions like the television, the computer, the household chores. But I can still safely say that the home is like one of the most protected place to be in, to rest and recover.

I need a change of air but i CAN’T give up on my dreams. i am like so upset now that I don’t know what to do.
I hope tomorrow will change for the better. Seriously, if this continues on and on, I will be getting myself a one-way ticket to a mental hospital.

t0ddles, -jMax;